Study udy udy.
to do lists.
not enough time…
This is all that runs through my head these days as I try to get everything done that I want to do or feel I need to do.
On top of that, well or on a tangent of that, I have been thinking about how I use my time and why I feel as if I do not have enough of it. Yes, you are probably thinking that if I do not have time, why am I blogging? That is a good question. I will get back to you with an answer as soon as I have enough time to figure that out.
I have been blessed with so many opportunities and I am thankful for each one. My weekends are full of exciting adventures with wonderful people and my weekdays are used learning and creating new things that may eventually be useful. School is probably both the hardest and easiest thing to be thankful for personally. I love learning. I love collecting fun, useless information into my brain and being able to pull it out on whim whenever I want. Think, Dumbledore extracting memories and collecting them in a Pensieve. What if one day I become magical and someone needs all my random facts? This is one of the reasons I love school; I like to be prepared for the future. But school is also very time consuming and I often feel as if I could be spending my time doing more direct service to others. It is so easy to get caught up in all of the work, to do lists and success driven thinking. Also I like to be lazy every once in a while and school interferes with my knitting, reading, chick-click watching habits.
This semester I have struggled with giving my all to my opportunities. I know I have a lot to do so it just seems easier if I do the bare minimum with out any real depth with each task, just going down the list and checking it off. I just show up rather than working hard to accomplish something that actually means something. My professor recently phrased it as “skipping through a project, la la la” (skipping as is the movement not skipping as not showing up [on further thought, I guess both would work])
God blesses each of us with great opportunities but sometimes I just need to step back and figure out what all my busy-ness is for and if it is really what I should be doing. And then when its figured out: Go for it! God wants us to use are gifts and talents to show his glory and what better way then to actually use the gift to its fullest. It is like praising Him because you know the gift is from Him, serving Him because hopefully you are using the gift and opportunity for good, and witnessing because sometimes a strong character and work ethic speaks more loudly then a preacher on a street corner; all at the same time. Bam! Your gift/opportunities has just been cubed. I follow and love an amazing Lord.
(Also one last note: Please dont actually cease skipping because skipping is the best)